Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Sometimes your plans don't turn out how you want them to, but sometimes they are better. This weekend was amazing.

We had thunderstorms every night. I don't remember ever seeing such bad thunderstorms. It was crazy. You could feel it in your feet standing in our condo, 1 story off the ground. It was so crazy. 

I have some very big and exciting news also (which happened this weekend), but I can't talk about it right now. I know that is a huge tease, but I will spill all the beans soon enough. 

For now, I will tell y'all all about the skywheel. It was so much fun. We didn't have to wait in line at all, which was great. It was really roomy, the gondula wasn't cramped at all. There was a/c in there too. So the wheel went around 4 times, which was great because the first time I took a ton of pictures and the next couple of times around I just got to enjoy it and talk to J while riding 180 feet above the beach. Super sweet. J said we would definitely do that again. 

So without further ado...

 J and I on the city side

 South of the Skywheel

 North of the Skywheel

Directly view on the beach

J and I on the beach side

With the skywheel in the background, and my hair all in my face

Oh it was so much fun, thunderstorms and all.

PS its storming now. Hope y'all are staying safe and dry.


To the Beach!

Friday, July 27, 2012

Have you ever had plans that just fell through?! That's what I thought was going to happen this weekend. It's kinda disappointing, but sometimes better things happen instead.

My best friend, B and I had planned to come down to our family condo in Myrtle Beach, and then have J come up when he got off of work for the weekend. Well, B and I had an argument about me coming to pick her up, so she decided she just had too much stuff to do this weekend to go anyway. Which was no problem, I still came down to the beach. I'm pretty excited about it. I have my flip flop cake (left over from my birthday... but I did bring the uneaten one) to have a mini party tomorrow night with J. I haven't told him yet, but I would like to go dancing tomorrow night. I'm sure he won't mind. We wanted to do that anyway, but didn't want to leave B out.

Also, Sunday I think I would like to go on this cool Ferris wheel type of thing. It's called the Skywheel. I think it looks amazing. It's 187 feet tall and is almost on the beach. But your seat thing is called a gondola, and it looks to be a glass bubble you ride around it. Of course I'm going to bring my camera! The more I look into it, the more excited I get. PLUS!!!! They give military discounts. It makes me feel good when places support the military.

Alright, well I'm off to try a local dive called Big KT's BBQ. I hope it's good!



Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Last night was not a very happy night. First of all, I had to drive about 100 miles round trip last night. But on top of that J called me with "good" and "bad" news. And before I go into this, I'm sure y'all will think I'm totally insane for the way I reacted, but I will try to explain everything.

So J's bad news was that he was switching to swing shift (or the 2pm to 10pm shift). Good news was that he didn't have to start that until next Tuesday so he would be able to stay longer at the beach with me this coming weekend. Ok, so this is where I got super upset.

Reason 1, I hate change. A couple of years ago, I had really bad depression. It was at it's absolute worst when something changed. So, even to this day, I know when something changed I have a total melt down.

Reason 2, I am super afraid that we won't get to talk as much. Right now I don't have a job, which is good because I can talk to him during the day when he isn't at work. But even though I don't have a job, I know J likes to sleep in and take naps, so I have a feeling he will sleep in until 10 or 11 in the morning, and basically get up with enough time to eat and get dressed to go to work. So where does that leave time to talk with me. And so then, when I do get a job and I'm working 8am until 4 pm, when are we supposed to talk? Friends have told me it's not that bad and if we are meant to be we will make it through this. My mom even told me this morning that the supposed 6 months he's going to be on this shift will go by so quickly. You know, time flies when you have things to do, but when you sit around the house all day, time doesn't go by so quickly. At least not to me it doesn't.

Reason 3, It didn't seem to bother him any that he is changing shifts. His response was that he knew stuff like this would happen when he signed up, so no use getting upset over it. It seemed like he didn't even care that he would possibly not get to talk to me as much. Like it wasn't even a big deal. I tried to ask what he was really feeling... that was a big fat silence. Maybe he was upset, maybe not. Maybe he was trying to be strong for me, but in that case, why make me feel like such an ass for getting upset?! Like I was getting upset on purpose.

Has anybody else has some change in your mans life that affected you and make you upset? How do you deal with it? What do you do to make it better?

Thanks y'all.

That's insane.

Monday, July 23, 2012

Today, yes, today, was the mark of my 2 weeks in the Insanity program. I have kind of been all over the place with how I feel about this workout. But all in all, it's actually working. I've lost about 2 pounds already. I am sure I would have lost more if I could have had a better diet during those 2 weeks, but being away from the house or staying in a motel for a good portion of the workout doesn't help. So I'm happy with the 2 pounds. That's insane.

I miss J like crazy. Being away from home makes me miss him even more. I haven't really talked about this, but J and I have been talking and making plans for things to become more serious. We went to the jewelry store so I could show him what I like. He wants to ask my dad as soon as he can (in person), and then propose to me. I've told him I don't want to know anything about it, not when he will ask my dad, when he will ask me, where, how... nothing. But I feel like it will be soon. I want it to be soon. After spending a month together I feel so lost without watching him get ready in the morning or having him come home to me everyday. We are getting to see each other this coming weekend, and I suggested just running off and getting married then. I know its a bad idea, but I just don't want to wait to be together. That's insane.

I feel like I'm going crazy, but I know I'm not. Or at least I hope I'm not. I know I just miss J, and that it will get better soon. Do y'all ever feel like you are going insane?


Happy Birthday to me

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Sunday was my 22nd birthday! It was a really nice birthday. I celebrated it with my grandparents and my parents. I did get a lot of nice gifts from my parents. My mom also made me a cake!

I really wish J could have been there. J, my best friend and I are going to celebrate on the 29th. I'm very excited about that. I am trying not to eat a lot of cake/candy/junk food, but when my friend, J and I celebrate, we are getting a cupcake and candle. I'm really excited, even if it's just a walmart cupcake.

I hope y'all are doing well.


Would you like to buy this?

Friday, July 13, 2012

I'm leaving today to go back up to my college town to help a friend who has a photography business. She is shooting little kids softball. Which means that I get to sit at the table and upload all the pictures and try to help sell them. I don't like being a sales person.

So this town is about an hour and a half away from my house. Luckily, my grandmother lives about 10 minutes away from the sports park, so I'm going to stay with her. But unfortunately she doesn't have internet. :( I know there was life before the internet, but I don't like it. J and I have been skyping fairly regularly. It is so nice to actually see him. I wish we both had iPhones so we could face time. I can't wait until October until I can get mine. Hopefully when his contract comes up in February he will want to get the iPhone as well! Then no more worries about no internet.

Sorry for this being short and uninteresting. Hopefully I will have some fun and interesting stories to tell when I get back Wednesday!!! Thanks for reading though!


My Crazy Wonderful Life

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Hey y'all! I'm Ashley. I'm also not very good at introducing myself. I tend to list things and sound repetitive. So I'll try to give y'all a good introductory spiel about me.
I am a college graduate with Bachelors degrees in both Biology and Chemistry. Can you say geek?! Anyway currently unemployed. And kind of being a bum but wishing I was going to grad school in the fall. But I'm not, so I spend my days scrapbooking, working out, playing on the computer and texting the love of my life, J. I do look for jobs in there somewhere too, so I'm not being a total bum. I love anything that's bright. I'm one of those people that loves to walk around the bookstore and look at all the books. I have a ton of books I've bought, or that are on my kindle, that I've never read. My new kick is cook books. I love cooking. Plus I want to be good at it when J and I actually live together so he doesn't have to eat burnt food.

So this whole blog will mainly be about J and my relationship and our lives together. Although right now we are separated by distance, which is not a fun time. He's an Airman in South Carolina. He's from Alabama. He has the sweetest southern accent (because who can't fall in love with one of those) but he doesn't talk with it much unfortunately. The guys pick on him at work too much. He absolutely loves baseball, even has a broken nose to show his love of the sport. He is very passionate about everything he does. I guess that's why I love him so much.
I hope I have given y'all a good intro to me (and J). So I'll leave you with a picture...
And thanks for stopping by!