That's insane.

Monday, July 23, 2012

Today, yes, today, was the mark of my 2 weeks in the Insanity program. I have kind of been all over the place with how I feel about this workout. But all in all, it's actually working. I've lost about 2 pounds already. I am sure I would have lost more if I could have had a better diet during those 2 weeks, but being away from the house or staying in a motel for a good portion of the workout doesn't help. So I'm happy with the 2 pounds. That's insane.

I miss J like crazy. Being away from home makes me miss him even more. I haven't really talked about this, but J and I have been talking and making plans for things to become more serious. We went to the jewelry store so I could show him what I like. He wants to ask my dad as soon as he can (in person), and then propose to me. I've told him I don't want to know anything about it, not when he will ask my dad, when he will ask me, where, how... nothing. But I feel like it will be soon. I want it to be soon. After spending a month together I feel so lost without watching him get ready in the morning or having him come home to me everyday. We are getting to see each other this coming weekend, and I suggested just running off and getting married then. I know its a bad idea, but I just don't want to wait to be together. That's insane.

I feel like I'm going crazy, but I know I'm not. Or at least I hope I'm not. I know I just miss J, and that it will get better soon. Do y'all ever feel like you are going insane?

Ashley

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